August 26, 2017

I’ve never shared this before, until now. I’ve always been ashamed, until now. This day Papa God, removed the deep depression that oppressed me for so long! I was at Leif Hetland’s Global Mission Awareness in Kennesaw, Georgia.

It’s Moving Day

All my things are on the floor
Ready to be pack and
Put in my car

It’s Moving Day
I have seen this day,
played out in my mind so many times
I thought it wouldn’t happen
Yet, where I’m going my heart doesn’t want to go.

I know that this is just a stoping place
Just a season
Where God will get me ready
For where He has called me, to.

My heart is heavy
with emotions
My mind is running
the what if’s

It’s Moving Day
I have seen this day,
played out in my mind so many times
I thought it wouldn’t happen
Yet, where I’m going my heart doesn’t want to go.

I know that this is just a stoping place
Just a season
Where God will get me ready
For where He has called me, to.

Never thought
I would leave my home or
my family
I know if I stay,
I won’t change or
move to the place that God has called me, to.

So on Moving Day
I will go with tears in my eyes
I will go with the expectation
God will guide
God will provide

It’s Moving Day
I have seen this day,
played out in my mind so many times
I thought it wouldn’t happen
Yet, where I’m going my heart doesn’t want to go.

I know that this is just a stoping place
Just a season
Where God will get me ready
For where He has called me, to.

©️ Copyright 2018 Tabby Edwards http://www.ScrollsByTabby.com, All Rights Reserved.

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GoodBye

Goodbye

I never thought Goodbye, could hurt so bad.
I never thought Goodbye, could turn a person upside down.
I never thought I would have to say Goodbye.
I thought it would be you saying it to me!

Today I stand at you tombstone
Looking back on all we did and said.
Thinking we missed words would should’ve said and words we shouldn’t not said.
All that is mute

I never thought Goodbye, could hurt so bad.
I never thought Goodbye, could turn a person upside down.
I never thought I would have to say Goodbye.
I thought it would be you saying it to me!

Life seems so unfair
Life seems so untrue
But yet I’m still here just trying to pick up the pieces.

I know when my mind stops spinning
I when my heart stops breaking
I will see the light of Jesus.
I know he is here with me through all of this
But still…

I never thought Goodbye, could hurt so bad.
I never thought Goodbye, could turn a person upside down.
I never thought I would have to say Goodbye.
I thought it would be you saying it to me!

I never thought Goodbye, could hurt so bad.
I never thought Goodbye, could turn a person upside down.
I never thought I would have to say Goodbye.
I thought it would be you saying it to me!

It’s should’ve been me….

©️ Copyright 2018 Tabby Edwards http://www.ScrollsByTabby.com, All Rights Reserved.

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My Walk the Jesus

God has been speaking to me about this for months now…

When I was growing up and later as an adult coming back to the church.
I wish the church had taught me:
Who I was in Christ, my Identity
My promises I received as being a believer in Christ
What was the Yes’s are in Christ.

If I had been taught this from the beginning, my walk with Christ would have been so much easier.
Not saying there would be no trials, I would know and believe who I am in Christ.
Who I am and who I belong to and knowing my authority, are so much more important.
It would have been so much easier not to listen to the lies of the enemy.

But instead
I got taught
All the No’s and can’ts

My walk/relationship with Jesus has been and still hard as hell!
It’s a struggle some days
Sometimes I feel like I’m in the fiery furnace all by myself
I know I’m not to go on feelings but the Very Word of God, the Bible.
Still, I struggle with doubts.

As I’m typing this I have tears running down my face.
Thinking of all the people who are going through this too.

Church, stop teaching religion show us and teach us about a relationship with Jesus.
It not about my damn works and what I do!
It’s about what Jesus did on the Cross!

I’m tired of less, I want more

I’m tired of less
I want more

I don’t want to be ordinary
I want to be extraordinary

I don’t want to live too live
I want to live with expectations

I don’t want a life of meaningless
I want a life with purpose

I don’t want to be hidden anymore
I want to show the world the light that is in me

I have a life of miracles and healing in me
I want to share with world, the love of Papa God

I want to shine so bright that I have to wear shades

©️Tabby Edwards http://www.ScrollsByTabby.com