My Walk the Jesus

God has been speaking to me about this for months now…

When I was growing up and later as an adult coming back to the church.
I wish the church had taught me:
Who I was in Christ, my Identity
My promises I received as being a believer in Christ
What was the Yes’s are in Christ.

If I had been taught this from the beginning, my walk with Christ would have been so much easier.
Not saying there would be no trials, I would know and believe who I am in Christ.
Who I am and who I belong to and knowing my authority, are so much more important.
It would have been so much easier not to listen to the lies of the enemy.

But instead
I got taught
All the No’s and can’ts

My walk/relationship with Jesus has been and still hard as hell!
It’s a struggle some days
Sometimes I feel like I’m in the fiery furnace all by myself
I know I’m not to go on feelings but the Very Word of God, the Bible.
Still, I struggle with doubts.

As I’m typing this I have tears running down my face.
Thinking of all the people who are going through this too.

Church, stop teaching religion show us and teach us about a relationship with Jesus.
It not about my damn works and what I do!
It’s about what Jesus did on the Cross!

I’m tired of less, I want more

I’m tired of less
I want more

I don’t want to be ordinary
I want to be extraordinary

I don’t want to live too live
I want to live with expectations

I don’t want a life of meaningless
I want a life with purpose

I don’t want to be hidden anymore
I want to show the world the light that is in me

I have a life of miracles and healing in me
I want to share with world, the love of Papa God

I want to shine so bright that I have to wear shades

©️Tabby Edwards http://www.ScrollsByTabby.com

Torture

Life is Torture

We are walking in a web of deceit
Just trying to crawl out of what Satan has spun
Praying we won’t become his meal for Torture of play
He set his traps for the world to see

Life is Torture
Sometimes
When we serve two masters
We have to choose which one we want
The one that will serve us our wants and desires into sin and death
Or
The one who will give us Peace and Life

Life is Torture
When we are out in the world
Looking behind and looking for rich man’s gold
We are lost
So look within the Scritures to find all the answers

Life is Torture
If you let it be
Just serve only one master
The Heavenly Father
He will give you EverLasting Love

Life is Torture
If you let it be
So do you hear the voices of Satan or Jesus?
Choose the voice of God of Love, God of Grace – Jesus Christ
My Lovely Ones

Today, I Reflect….My 47th Birthday

Today, I reflect…..

Today’s my 47th Birthday
I have lived 47 years longer than doctors ever said I would.

Today 47 years ago, I was pronounced dead in my mom’s womb.
My mom gave birth to me, I was number 3 of the stillborns.

My mom screamed out for the doctors to save me.
They said if they did, “I would be blind, retarded, couldn’t walk, talk or write! I would be useless!”
My mom still persisted.

See, I was breached, which means I was going to be born butt first instead of head.
The doctors turned me around inside my mom womb.
When they did, it caused me to have a bowel movement and ingest it.
Then in I got hung on my umbilical cord.

Doctors were not sure which one caused me to die.
But I was dead!

But God brought me to life.
For he placed a nurse in the operating room that knew what to do!

As I grew up, I have had health problems left and right
I have had 27 surgeries or maybe more, I stopped counting.
Doctors every year would say, “I would not live another year.”

Finally on my 18th Birthday they said, “they didn’t know how long I would live but they didn’t believe I would live past my 30th.”

I’m still here!

I have died before in a car accident,
But God told me I wasn’t finished so he sent me back

I have a 17 year old son even though the doctors always said I would never have a child.

Several years ago I was told I would have a month to live, then 2 hours to live
I’m still here!

I look back not to be sad, but
Say, “Wow. Papa God you are so amazing! I have come so far and will, until you came and get me. I know & see that all things are possible for those that believe in Jesus!”

As you can see by reading this, I can read & write!
I can build computers from scratch, which is fun to me!
I can walk, talk and sing!
All of this is because of Papa God!

No matter what we are going through in life Papa God is there and He loves us!

My desire is for Papa is to use me to help others…

Through my testimony

I can’t imagine what Papa, Jesus & I will be doing in the next 47 years or so
I know the future is bright!

My mom would go on and have a total of 3 children living, that includes me!